Olly Murs is ‘still struggling’ with the death of his friend Caroline Flack.
The stars met when they hosted The Xtra Factor together, going on to present the main show for one series, and Olly was devastated when the 40-year-old took her own life in February.
And the Heart Skips A Beat singer has admitted her tragic death ‘still hurts every day’.
Speaking to Vicky Pattison on her The Secret To podcast, the 36-year-old said: ‘For Caz not to be here anymore is hard, it’s difficult. It doesn’t get easy. I’m just fortunate that I spent so many great memories with her, I’ve so many amazing times with her that I can look back on, I’m very fortunate that a lot of it was documented.
‘I am still struggling. It hurts every day thinking about what she must have gone through.’
Olly discussed their ‘special chemistry’, saying: ‘People thought we were together, we weren’t together – we never, ever got together, we never pulled each other. We were just always like brother and sister. I’ve never experienced that level of friendship before.’
He added: ‘It breaks my heart what happened. I love her.’
The singer read out a note that Caroline sent to his manager for his tour, which read: ‘When I met Olly for the first time, I felt like I’d met my soulmate.’
The Voice judge said: ‘ That time we had together [on The X Factor] was one of the happiest moments, and it makes me happy that we were both so happy at that point.’
Geordie Shore star Vicky added that the world was a worse place without Caroline, with Olly saying: ‘It’s mad when you do lose someone you care about. We didn’t speak every day, we didn’t message every day, but there is a massive hole in my life without Caz in it. I think about her most days, I think about what she’d be doing on TikTok.
‘Goodbye is not forever. I know I will see her again at some point so I look forward to that day.’
The star also shared that he was comforted by people who had suffered loss through suicide messaging him when the Love Island host passed away.
Murs said: ‘It felt like everyone was together and mourning together over Caz.
‘I felt like none of my friends knew what I was going through or how I felt, and when other people were messaging me saying “I lost a friend to suicide” and were telling me stories, it was comforting to hear.’
Caroline died on 15 February, with an inquest earlier this month ruling her death a suicide.
Her mother Chris claimed that Flack was devastated over the CPS’s decision to charge her with assault, following an incident with her boyfriend Lewis Burton.
Speaking via videolink at the coroner’s court, Mrs Flack said: ‘You took [my daughter] away, [Mr Burton] was allowed to take pictures of the blood of Caroline, send them to friends, and they appeared in the press. You didn’t investigate it.
‘If it had been… an ordinary person, you wouldn’t have prosecuted. I see domestic abuse and I just think you should be disgusted with yourself so there is nothing we can do to bring Caroline back.
‘I hope in hindsight you do regret this. This girl killed herself because you put an appeal through.’
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